How Could it be any Different?

How do people get it in their heads that you can remain friends after you break up? It's impossible. I've tried it, doesn't work.. Can't go there. RK thinks its possible -- they why - tell me do we fight like crazy when we are together now? Why is there tension.. Why issues? Ummm.. because there is history. And now as I move on to someone else (hey, I'm a Gemini, love them quickly, when I find it won't work, move on quickly.. its just how I am - deal) he gets grumpy and jealous.. hello? SHUT THE FUCK UP! If you want me, consider some changes in your life in the future - if not, butt the hell out of my new life without you. I say that knowing, and having known for a couple of weeks now that I don’t want the relationship back. I do not want him back. Not because DC is around now (I have no clue what will happen with that and hold it with a very loose hand) but because I see how we are able to be the best of friends and marriage and kids aside.. a relationship like that would not work between us as our faults are too similar – as are our strengths.

Friends? Yes, always. I would give the world to him if I could. But close like we were? It just does not work, not in this reality. And how fair is that BS to anyone new? Not at all. If I were in DC's position I'd be incredibly uneasy with dating someone whom was still "best friends" with a recent ex. Not cool at all. And how dare RK think that any man who would come along would put up with that bullshit - unfair to ask of anyone.

I guess its kind of moot anyway as I pissed RK off so badly tonight I'm not sure that he will speak to me for a long time. Drama. I hate it, but I seem to attract it very well. Apparently I should never text message in his (RK's) presence as he will ASSume that it is DC the "new boyfriend" HE'S NOT MY BOYFRIEND – yet. And RK will get all pissy.. ummm hey.. not my fault you fell for me, not my fault you chose to date someone you knew you'd have to change for in order to be with.. Not really my fault I had to walk away.. just a wise decision I had to make for my future. Sad, but necessary. And YES I have moved on. And NO a friendship like ours will NOT work at this point. I'm sorry. I hate it too, but its reality.. Don't think I wanted it this way as I did not.