URH..

Ok - I keep coming back here to write becuase its the only place I can really go right now. Only one person knows about this - and my heart and mind are going BONKERS! I love this guy.. FUCK!! SHIT!! DAMN!! FUCKKK!! DAMMIT!! It WAS NOT supposed to be this way at all! It was supposed to be a fling.. and off to other things..

But all I can think, and all I can feel is love - FUCK! Why do I have to be one of those girls who can't just fuck and date.. why do I have to go and have "feelings" for this person.. and why does he have to feel the same way? Huh? Tell me? This is NOT fair. Not fair at all..

And every beat that goes by.. again and again.. I love him.. how pathetic am I?