.. and the depression settles in -

It has come to that place where time seems to go by as slow as possible.. boredom has rested upon me and the weight of all that I am not sits upon my shoulders - a burden i cannot bear. Time creeps slowly by - and the moments between each beat of the second hand seem to pause for an eternity.. lifetimes flahsing by in those instances.. unaware.. passing.. passage.. time.. wasting.. life.. me.

And I don't know how to change it..